Answering questions that I shouldn't

I know I've come to you four times today asking you to change the angle of my cage but this time it's different!! The sun is hitting the cage at the perfect angle and if you move it 20 degrees to the right it will really toast up some of my sawdust and make it a nice lounge area.

I asked you about a month ago to give me some questions for a Q&A video and you really did deliver. I felt like the questions were thoughtful and interesting. Strangely, I chose to answer questions in my Q&A video that many would describe as bad faith questions. I suppose I have an agenda, and that's to humanize myself to the casual random viewer. The video will be coming out tomorrow!

In December, a right-wing shitposting channel streamed my modestycore video and commented over it. They called me a Jew like 7 times and spoke about my body for most of the video. This particularly felt weird because one of the hosts was Jewish himself. Two comments that struck me as interesting were: "what's the point if she doesn't have only fans?" and "she's a paper bagger for sure."

The first comment was interesting to me because it's not uncommon for someone to ask if I have OF, therefore there's something consistent happening. Consistent yet not necessarily personal. The second comment made me think of the term "butterface", a term used to describe someone who has a great body but an ugly face. 

In my QandA video, I sincerely answered why I don't have an OF, what I think about it, and the experience of being a weird girl on the internet. Sometimes I think answering questions with sincerity and taking the question seriously is more effective than refusing to answer. As a woman who also likes women, I have a part of me that's a dirtbag incel. I see a hot girl in a movie and then look up what her boob size is after. Maybe I'm insane, but I see the question "do you have an OF?" as more complicated than just a transactional question. 

As for the terms paper bagger and butterface, I also find them interesting. Why can't I just study normal topics? I have no idea. When I was in school, the popular girls were like a special class of people, especially since I went to a private school. They had very pretty, mature faces were fashionable and maybe had money. Classic popular girl trope. 

There was another tiny tier of distinction and that was the butterface. The girl that was maturely developed but had a normal/average/"ugly" face. She had some power because of her body but she wasn't a popular girl, she was most likely a nerd or had few friends. Butterface is a term made by children to come to terms with the dissonance of being attracted to someone who is attractive for the wrong reasons. Wrong reasons as in, she's not cool, popular, or pretty, you just like her body. I was called a butterface and I still think about the term, digesting it. I spent a lot of my life cultivating hot girl energy, you all know I am obsessed with trends and femininity. I think because I've both been called degrading things, been flatteringly and disturbingly sexualized, AND have sexualized women myself, that I think answering these questions is important. One day I think I will make a butterface video but for now, I am ruminating on the idea. This isn't a post looking for you to be like "but Maya your face shines like the winter moon!" I just wanted to explain why I made this video. I wanted you to know where I was coming from.  

Another question people often ask me, especially women is: "what bras do you wear in your videos/what's your bra size"? I decided to answer this question because I think a large amount of the population (even bra wearing population) doesn't know that bra sizes are a scam. I think it's something that brings a lot of people agony, stress, pride, or excitement to talk about, so why gatekeep something that I know a lot about? 

These are some of the topics I speak about in my video and I guess I wanted to check in with you guys and explain myself and why I felt these questions were worthy of answering. I think I can answer them so that other people don't need to and with the hope that people who watch my videos understand me better. The questions that I didn't answer in my video will be answered, thank you so much for caring enough to be curious!

-Your salacious and gossiping rat